Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts

love love love

"What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the mornings, what you will do with your evenings, how you spend your weekends, what you read, who you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude. Fall in love, stay in love, and it will decide everything."
~fr. pedro arrupe

lost at sea

'cause when the day comes
and i've counted all my sins
how many i'll see
i want to be able to say
that i did more
more than pray

i did more than
just spend my money
just writing letters
just going out marching

did more than
talking
saying the right thing
wearing the right thing
time for uprising

something about

looking out upon some great vista of

people

curvature
water

trees

streets

lifts
or snow

the sunset whispers
that makes you pause,

central park was still green
thank God

city
and say

at this moment,
this is exactly who i am supposed to be with
and i am exactly where i am supposed to be.

bookend encounters

a drizzly february morning.
1st task of the day: purchase snacks for a meeting in sf.
i'm early, and trader joe's is still closed.

alone, i wait, earbuds in, somewhat dazed,
not fully recovered from the spell of sickness
that kept me in bed for half the day before.

8:50am
a man rides up on his bicycle and waits too.
we begin with pleasant small talk,
but the conversation quickly turns
and he starts to vent his
frustrations and anger with
unemployment, hunger, homelessness, authority, life...

our discussion never actually ends.
i don't quite have the right words to say in response.
he trails off and shuffles among the crowd
that is making their way through the store's open doors.

ash wednesday mass that night
i say a little prayer for him.
for better days.
for his peace of mind.
i forget about all this until...


last night.
it's almost 10 o'clock
and i'm just leaving good friday service.

the next bus is in 27 min
so i opt for a less direct route home.

sneaks, jeans, backpack with
hood up over my head
to thwart an unexpected chilly breeze.
i feel like a student again
walking past people's park
reminded of this campus's strange coexistence of
privilege and poverty.

hello. you were sitting next to me at church, right?
yes, i was.

in half a block we exchange niceties & names:
the typical
how do you do?
where are you from?
where are you headed?


then the inevitable
(and these days often touchy)
what do you do?

i give my standard answer
then hesitantly ask him in return.

i'm not into anything at the moment,
but things are just starting to come together for me.
i was homeless for a few years,
but now i have a roof over my head.

we come to the corner of telegraph & dwight
where we are to part ways.
i'm headed in this direction now.
i'm glad to hear that things
are starting to look up for you.

thank you.
what was your name again?

camille.
in case i don't see you,
happy easter.

i extend my arm out for a handshake
and receive
a hug.

for the scrooge in you

maybe i'm enjoying the season b/c i don't have finals...

speak on it linus

advent: a coming into place, view, or being

so will it be also at the coming of the Son of Man.
two men will be out in the field;
one will be taken, and one will be left.
two women will be grinding at the mill;
one will be taken, and one will be left.
therefore, stay awake!
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i ponder the thought of this season as "coming into" whatever it may be. it seems to say that whatever life brings at this time should come naturally. and yet it seems you can never be fully prepared for the surprises of life, both bad and good. it's so curious how these mysterious ways work.
well, 'tis the season...and i'll try not to miss a thing.

merry christmas, happy holidays!
(video circa dec 2005)